Getting Over Feeling Overwhelmed

It’s no surprise when people tell me they’ve fallen into a funk as of lately, and I have to admit that I am in the same boat.  Life has been moving at light speed since last fall and I have been doing my best to just stay afloat.  I’m starting to feel like my personality just isn’t conducive to not feeling overwhelmed, like maybe my joys and sorrows get the best of me and can be inspiring as well as debilitating. As I made my way into March and planned for the 1-year anniversary of this blog, I was faced with incredible pride but also a sense of overwhelming pressure.  I spent a year with so many amazing experiences and documented so many things.  This blog was not just a way to have these memories shared with other, or even a chance for me to internally process my thoughts… it […]

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Making My Peace With The Year 2016

Who hasn’t been affected by the craziness of this year?  As I struggle to make sense of one thing, I am bombarded with just another bit of turbulent reality that just seems to pile up.  It was a restless 2015 that actually started the whole thing in motion, I set multiple goals for the year of 2016.  I worked towards those goals, that I knew wouldn’t be resolved in a year, but had to make steps towards them anyway.  My year was doomed from the beginning, creating a long laundry list of things to do was already going to be a stretch, but add on top all of 2016’s surprises; deaths, politics, anger, heartbreak, mistrust, sadness, failure, hardships, the list can really go on.  Bear with me in this post, it may seem like a lot of randomness, but it will all make sense in the end. Step one in […]

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Reestablishing Yourself after Childbirth

Almost five years ago I embarked on the hardest challenge of my life.  I was pregnant with my first child, my daughter Evie.  She’s the apple of my eye and I am always so fortunate to have her in my life.  Somehow, I still find myself trying to come to terms with what exactly happened to my life, my body, and my relationships since then. Let me set the stage a bit.  I was a little untethered then; moved away from home, no family and few friends, unmarried, living in California with my boyfriend (now husband), and working at a design and build firm as a designer/ project manager (I was doing double duty when the lead manager was let go) which was (at the time) teetering on needing to close.  Life had it’s stresses, but manageable and not as complicated as I thought it was. I didn’t even know I […]

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Four Things I Wish I Knew Prior To Childbirth About Childbirth

Currently, I have one sister and a handful of friends expecting children right now.  It’s such a nervous and exciting time, and I was feeling exactly that way when I was pregnant with Evie.  In the wake of one of our best friend’s baby shower and planning my sister’s shower, I thought of all the things that I wish someone had explained in more detail prior to childbirth.  Most times you hear of some things, and maybe skim over it, like the little bit you got was enough information, but I ended up finding that really it wasn’t. It is amazing and so strange what happens to a woman and a woman’s body during childbirth.  Some people love the experience and take every moment with grace.  I was not one of those people.  Pregnancy was strange, and I constantly thought of my baby as being a strange alien who did […]

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