Another Year Older And Hopefully A Little Wiser

Last month I turned 37 years old, and I think I needed some time to really figure out what that meant for me.  This year has been tumultuous (at best) and it’s been hard to find moments to process most of it.  It has recently occurred to me that, like others, we have learned that sometimes you just can’t let yourself process in order to not be overwhelmed with how much it all starts to spiral out of control.  After some time, I think I have 37 manifesto of sorts. This year’s birthday hike on Mission Peak.  If you haven’t spent a birthday morning on top of a mountain, I highly recommend it.  It’s a very literal-meets-figurative experience to start a new year of life.    This year has brought lots of heartache, change, death and an overall evaluation of values.  In order to understand how I view this year of […]

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Getting Back to What’s REAL in Chicago

Wow, I can’t believe I’ve gone so long without posting anything.  It seems this year has sucked out all the energy I’ve had for creative endeavors, and in my silence I know it’s been bothering me. Life gets busy, I get that.  Sometimes even a little “heavy”… I get that too.  This year has been nothing but one thing after the next, but I can’t keep making excuses for why I can’t focus on my own stuff from time to time.  Those who know me well enough know I can close off in times of distress, and I am so aware that thats not how I want to live my life.   Having drinks at The Lunatic, The Lover, & The Poet in Fulton Market with my sister and brother in law… he’s channeling some of that Lunatic vibe. Checking out The Publican restaurant for dinner and one of my faves […]

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A Lot is Happening in My Silence

It has been a tough couple months, leaving me a little angsty and questioning my own voice on matters and I know that isn’t conducive to having a blog.  The anxiety of the days that turn into weeks of silence is stressful, turning what used to be a project that I loved doing into a chore.  Why do I have this need to power off when things get tough, and how does one come back from that? I imagine I am not the only one who suffers from this and I imagine there’s things well in my control that attribute to it, so I have come to try to make sense of this silence, and try write about it. Of course, everyone has rough times that are beyond their control.  These past couple months have brought unplanned deaths and loss, moves, political changes, relationship changes within my own affiliations both […]

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Getting Over Feeling Overwhelmed

It’s no surprise when people tell me they’ve fallen into a funk as of lately, and I have to admit that I am in the same boat.  Life has been moving at light speed since last fall and I have been doing my best to just stay afloat.  I’m starting to feel like my personality just isn’t conducive to not feeling overwhelmed, like maybe my joys and sorrows get the best of me and can be inspiring as well as debilitating. As I made my way into March and planned for the 1-year anniversary of this blog, I was faced with incredible pride but also a sense of overwhelming pressure.  I spent a year with so many amazing experiences and documented so many things.  This blog was not just a way to have these memories shared with other, or even a chance for me to internally process my thoughts… it […]

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Celebrate EWR’s 1 Year Anniversary!

It was March 1st when I posted my first thoughts on starting this Ever Winding Road endeavor.  I had decided to step out of your own comfort zones and change how I will make my way in this world.  I wanted to take more photos and document the world around me, to find my voice in my experiences and really take the time for a bit of learning and gratitude, and to take a new approach in my life and be mindful of my own influences as well as my daughter’s.  It has not been an easy year, and I still have bigger goals in mind, but I am so glad I took that first step. As I look back on what has made a big difference in my outlook, it was to have the support of friends, family, and even strangers… who have offered so much encouragement in my journey.  This […]

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Getting Back On That Bike After Falling Off

I disappear when stuff starts getting to me.  It’s a habit that I try hard to break but it’s still something so easy to fall back to.  Stuff has been getting to me and I would love to just take some time to process all of it, I don’t feel like I can. Life has all sorts of bumps and my first job as a mother just can’t stop for them.  I’m still going to make sure my daughter is taken care of.  Once she is, I’ve had some design project deadlines to worry about and then there’s this pressure to get back to writing or photography or Instagram that I’ve also signed on for when I started Ever Winding Road.  It can be a little overwhelming sometimes, but I’m going to try to work through it. The last couple weeks have been a bit of a whirlwind.  I knew October […]

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Finding Security in My Writing: When Blogging Leaves You Overexposed

September 1st will mark my 6 months of having this blog and documenting my adventures.  Although writing about my life constantly leaves me feeling like I’m exposed, I also feel like there’s personal feelings that get more hidden.  Like as much as I’m putting out there, I find myself keeping more close, like I’m loosing too much too fast.  The editing and omitting of things, is still something that I haven’t gotten used to… probably because I do feel like this blog (as in my personal life) is a work in progress. The beginning of my blogging journey started with a little self realization and creating my own ambitious dreams for the year and for my life.  Maybe it’s because it’s the year of the monkey or mercury in retrograde, but the stars are aligned once again to f*ck my sh*t up once again.  Life has been changing a little too fast […]

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Inheriting Adventure: The Origins of Ever Winding Road

The very first memory of my life was picking flowers in an open field as a gift for family.  After discussing the details with my mom, I came to find out that the memory took place on my uncle’s land on a trip to the Philippines.  I was two and a half years old, but the memory was so clear to me. As an adult, I know childhood memories don’t normally go back so early.  A young mind usually does a memory dump around the age of four so most people don’t remember much before that.  Maybe it is because we were able to time stamp that memory to a short three week span in my life that was spent doing something out of the ordinary, or maybe it was because that snippet of my life made such an impression on me. My parents both had emigrated from the Philippines in the ’70s.  They created a family of […]

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Getting Back to a Blog When You Don’t Feel Like Writing

So, I’ve been on a bit of break from writing and going onto social media for lots of reasons.  I guess the stresses of life have been a bit overwhelming and I just didn’t feel like sharing. As a new blogger, I definitely find it strange to open up so much of myself to be documented in the public world of the internet.  It’s so exposing sometimes, and not that I’m usually spilling all my darkest secrets, but more like I’ve always been somewhat of a private person. I have trust issues. Life gets rough.  There’s things that add up and can weigh me down.  Sometimes you just need to take some time to reset.  I don’t think I’m there yet, I know there’s a lot to sort through and figure out. I guess I just never realized how much keeping up with social media or writing would add to […]

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Traveling with Kids Packing List

This blog is now almost three months old and writing on it has made me a little more conscious about my writing skills (or lack thereof).  I struggle sometimes to find my voice and share my thoughts openly.  Fortunately, I have found a group that has given me some opportunity to share with new audiences and has been really supportive of my writing.  I have published once again with TourRadar‘s online travel magazine, Days to Come. This article focuses more on some things that I have found helpful when traveling with my little Evie.  There’s so many products out there for travel with children, that I tried not to focus on products as much.  I wanted to pass along some helpful insight into what to bring with and why.  Things that maybe people don’t consider when planning a road trip or long vacation. My article can be found here: What […]

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