The Return to a New America

I am besides myself in grief about the election, and I know I am not alone. We spent the time before leaving the states to fill in our vote-by-mail cards and send them off, knowing that we would be away.  I wasn’t sold on Hillary, but I didn’t want Trump to win, so I voted for her.  I knew it was going to get really close.  I have never been overly political, especially on social media, but had shared some things because of this election. What Trump stands for is hate.  How could I sit back and watch as his world wants to turn my friends and family into stereotypes and generalizations… just another black man getting killed by police, just another illegal immigrant hispanic, just another muslim terrorist… just another woman to be “grabbed by the pussy”. I am not in America to celebrate mediocrity and money, as I […]

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Unleashing Females into the Wild

The month of October started off really testing myself on the mountains of the Lost Coast trail, and ended up watching my daughter really test herself on her longest hike to date (4.5 miles) on Angel Island and also climbing the large boulders of Yosemite’s Mirror Lake Trail. Of course I am a proud mama practically all the time, but something about her taking on these hikes makes me really glow.  There’s a lot that I’ve learned in my life through being out in nature, and I don’t think I understood it’s impact until later in life. My parents taught me a lot of self-sufficiency being out fishing or camping. I would come back from a a day spent catching on the river and wanting to immediately go out to the garden in the back to dig up some worms to bring back to the river the next weekend and […]

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When You Don’t Know if You Are Sinking or Swimming Anymore

It’s 7:45 am right now and I still haven’t slept.  Even though I feel like I’ve ran around town all day with a doctor appointment, a hair appointment, picking up medicine for Evie, and running lots of last minute errands today, I still have only met 50% of my Fitbit goal.  Even though I’ve spent the last 10 hours working on my laptop in the same seat of the sofa, I feel like I haven’t even made a dent in the work still yet to do.  Even though I have prepared some things for my parent’s arrival today, I will still need to clean the apartment top to bottom today. By the time you are reading this, I will be in Scandinavia enjoying some vacation time.  At this point, the craziness before the vacation, it’s hard to know if I am coming of going.  In actuality, I will probably be […]

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A Cry For A Little Empathy

As a mother, I have moments of questioning what I’m doing and how things affect her.  She’s 4 and has been getting stronger in her abilities to understand the world and communicate it with us.  She fills with questions and we as her parents are here to answer them.  I’ve been a little overcome recently with thoughts of what kind of world she has waiting for her. Her mind already understands empathy.  She sees a friend cry at school and she wants to console them.  Her mind already understands injustice.  Her daily struggle in life is negotiating her bedtime as she sees it as unfair that we get to stay up later than her.  Slowly, her connections with the world get larger than her home or her classroom, they become a community issue.  That community issue grows to a larger world issue.  I know my daughter is watching me for reactions on issues, […]

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Finding Security in My Writing: When Blogging Leaves You Overexposed

September 1st will mark my 6 months of having this blog and documenting my adventures.  Although writing about my life constantly leaves me feeling like I’m exposed, I also feel like there’s personal feelings that get more hidden.  Like as much as I’m putting out there, I find myself keeping more close, like I’m loosing too much too fast.  The editing and omitting of things, is still something that I haven’t gotten used to… probably because I do feel like this blog (as in my personal life) is a work in progress. The beginning of my blogging journey started with a little self realization and creating my own ambitious dreams for the year and for my life.  Maybe it’s because it’s the year of the monkey or mercury in retrograde, but the stars are aligned once again to f*ck my sh*t up once again.  Life has been changing a little too fast […]

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Inheriting Adventure: The Origins of Ever Winding Road

The very first memory of my life was picking flowers in an open field as a gift for family.  After discussing the details with my mom, I came to find out that the memory took place on my uncle’s land on a trip to the Philippines.  I was two and a half years old, but the memory was so clear to me. As an adult, I know childhood memories don’t normally go back so early.  A young mind usually does a memory dump around the age of four so most people don’t remember much before that.  Maybe it is because we were able to time stamp that memory to a short three week span in my life that was spent doing something out of the ordinary, or maybe it was because that snippet of my life made such an impression on me. My parents both had emigrated from the Philippines in the ’70s.  They created a family of […]

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Getting Back to a Blog When You Don’t Feel Like Writing

So, I’ve been on a bit of break from writing and going onto social media for lots of reasons.  I guess the stresses of life have been a bit overwhelming and I just didn’t feel like sharing. As a new blogger, I definitely find it strange to open up so much of myself to be documented in the public world of the internet.  It’s so exposing sometimes, and not that I’m usually spilling all my darkest secrets, but more like I’ve always been somewhat of a private person. I have trust issues. Life gets rough.  There’s things that add up and can weigh me down.  Sometimes you just need to take some time to reset.  I don’t think I’m there yet, I know there’s a lot to sort through and figure out. I guess I just never realized how much keeping up with social media or writing would add to […]

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Preparing for My Girly Getaway in Thailand

After coming back from a whirlwind family trip to the Philippines and Korea a couple months ago in December of 2015, I felt the time was just not long enough.  We were pretty jam-packed with activities with friends and family that it was a little exhausting and I could have used a vacation from my vacation.  I am so lucky to have a like-minded friend and neighbor, Rachelle, who was on board for finding a flight and sharing in some new experiences.  It started off as just an idea of a vacation, then with more talking we decided just to move on it.  Thailand was always a place on my list to go, we found a great deal, it falls on their new year water-fight celebration of Songkran, and it happens to be a big birthday celebration for her.  Sometimes, all signs point to YES! Rachelle and I met here in […]

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How NOT to Keep Kids Engaged, My Spring Break Fail

Yeah, life gets busy and as much as you want to do with your child, sometimes you just can’t get to it.  I just want to take this time to mom-shame myself.  I feel a little horrible about my daughter’s really uneventful spring break with mom. Last year, we had this amazing RV trip down into southern California, I wrote about it all HERE.  This year came around, and I’ve been so busy with so many projects, I just couldn’t get myself to let go of my own agenda. I had really high hopes too.  We were going to take our monthly camp weekend, just the two of us for some good old one-on-one time in the forest.  I wanted to make it into her first fishing trip for 2016.  She caught her first fist last year, and has been so excited to do it again.  I wanted to take […]

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Last Year’s Spring Break RV Trip to Southern California #throwbackthursday

We had been talking about getting in an RV to do some traveling for a couple years now.  I think at first, it was something that we would mention in an almost joking way, like it would never really happen but it would be cool if it did.  The more we talked about it, the more it became clear that it was definitely something we wanted to do.  We would search the internet at nights just pulling up RV blogs or Tiny Home tours, just to see how people really did it.  It made total sense to us, the more space you have, the more you fill it with stuff you convince yourself that you need.  Then the more stuff you have, the more trapped you really are.  Trapped both in a consumer lifestyle, a habit of needing and wanting more, and also trapped in the sense that all those […]

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