I disappear when stuff starts getting to me. It’s a habit that I try hard to break but it’s still something so easy to fall back to. Stuff has been getting to me and I would love to just take some time to process all of it, I don’t feel like I can.
Life has all sorts of bumps and my first job as a mother just can’t stop for them. I’m still going to make sure my daughter is taken care of. Once she is, I’ve had some design project deadlines to worry about and then there’s this pressure to get back to writing or photography or Instagram that I’ve also signed on for when I started Ever Winding Road. It can be a little overwhelming sometimes, but I’m going to try to work through it.
The last couple weeks have been a bit of a whirlwind. I knew October was going to be a pretty crazy month, it’s usually my busiest, so I did my best to leave September to being at home. Then it seemed like stuff started piling on all at once. Some bad news, some internal struggles, and just some general over planning started taking a toll on me.
Its hasn’t been all bad; I’ve had some great brunches with friends, a beautiful wedding, and some time spent out wine tasting. Still counting my blessings. I won’t go into all the other things in this post, but I’m trying to get back into finishing some blog posts that I started a while back, writing more, and just getting a little more on top of the things that fell off.
So, here we go…
Spent some time with work, it has been busy, it’s not a bad problem to have. I thought I’d share this nursery I just finished in New York though to just show how much a project can change from the first idea board to the final outcome. Once a nautical themed room, now a gender neutral room to play in and grow with a child. A lot changes in the design process and it can be both stressful and rewarding all at the same time.
Spent some time at Rock Wall Winery in Alameda. It was a beautiful day to get a terrible call, but I was with some of my favorite people in Oakland so that made it ok.
Spent some time on the roof. Maybe it was the recent full moon just messing with things, but having someone to talk to on a quiet night as the city sleeps can make a big difference.
One morning, after staying up late with work, my husband and I were woken up by my daughter. She had woken up early, took herself to the potty, dressed herself and gotten a bowl of cereal. She was actually in the living room eating her breakfast when she decided to wake us up to remind us that we need to make her a lunch for school. I was super impressed by her responsibility and how grown up she is sometimes. Then I thought about how she’s responsible and grown up and got sad at the thought. She’s not my baby anymore, but sometimes I just want her to stay four years old forever.
Of course there’s a lot more that’s been happening, but I’m just trying to point out a couple things that kinda made a difference during this time. Everyone falls off their bike now and again, and we just need to press on… and there’s always a little bit of silver lining when you start looking for it.